Sometimes I fail to remember that God sees what I cannot. In the midst of whatever I happen to be going through at a given time, I lose sight of the peace that comes from recognizing that God sees every storm from the other side of it. He knows the lessons we will learn and He sees the clear sky beyond the clouds.
One of the things I struggle with most is when I have dreams that haven't been given to me yet. Things I desire for my life that continue to just not happen. Let me tell you, waiting is tough for me in every sense of the word. I laugh often with my friends and family and say there isn't a patient bone in my body. It's funny, but it's completely true.
When some dreams haven't happened yet, I feel like everything in me wants to claw and fight for them. I feel restless and so discouraged. But it is then I feel God telling me to be still. To keep working hard, pressing on and powering through.....and leave my future up to Him.
He is he God of every story. He knows how every moment of our lives will pan out. He sees my life from the point of view that I cannot. He's knows how my story is going to end up because He wrote it already.
I'm the type of person who hates surprises. I can't enjoy something unless I know how it's going to end up. I will read the last chapter of a book before I start at the beginning. I will read online reviews to know what happened on my favorite shows before I watch them so I know what to expect. On competition shows, I'll look online to see who won or who got sent home before I watch the show. I have a hard time relaxing and enjoying the journey of something without knowing how it's all going to end up.
Poor God. How unfaithful and unbelieving I must look to Him. (I believe....help thou my unbelief). I wonder if God sits up there on His throne just laughing away at me watching me fuss and fret about the future and unrealized dreams/unmet desires. He's read the WHOLE story. He knows it all ends up okay in the end.
I've read the greater story that's beyond me and my existence. The Bible tells us that God wins in the end. And if God wins, so do we as children of God.
I have got to learn to live in the knowledge that God has equipped me for victory. He has already won the battle for me. Every battle.
Oh how much more simple my life would be if I lived out that knowledge more in my life. Jesus....help me to better trust you.
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